I feel stuck.

Usually, I would start my articles with a little longer sentence, but lately I just feel stuck. I feel stuck on everything.

What I want to do with my life after college? Truth is, I do not know anymore. I know a lot of students feel this way especially at this point in the semester. However, this is not your average stuck on classes or homework feeling.

I feel stuck in everything I do.

Lately, my anxiety has taken over EVERYTHING. I do not know why or how, just that it happened.

Surely, I am not the only one feeling this way. I feel like I am being pushed and pulled to my breaking point. Now, I know I should not let little things get to me but, it is those little things that tear a person down.

I worry so much about my grades, my extracurriculars, family and my future. Do I care too much? Yes, I do, because that is just who I am.

Everybody says you should not let it get to you or everyone makes mistakes, and every time I hear those generic phrases, I get stuck even more. I cannot even begin to describe how stuck I feel.

Anyone feeling the same way knows exactly what I mean. I have not felt like this in a while. I cannot even say I feel trapped because I do not. I am just stuck, stuck and confused on everything I do.

Oddly, I am content with feeling stuck because I know I am not the only person feeling this way. I also know that it is only a temporary feeling.

It is also okay to talk about it, which puts my mind at ease. Nothing personal has caused this feeling. It just happens.

I am not depressed or anything, not even trapped.

It is a somber feeling but there was a point where I just become done with most things and people. I do not even think being done is the right word to use.

It almost feels somber, a somber and content feeling. I still feel it but it feels like something is missing.

I do not know what is missing but I know something is. It does not even feel empty. It is just there.

I cannot describe what exactly what I am feeling. I know this will pass but it just feels like more and more things are happening.

Until then I am just going to keep on doing what I am doing and work through it, like most people who feel this way.

Katelyn Eddington is a senior journalism major. She can be reached at 581-2812 or at kdeddington@eiu.edu.